Chapter 405: Hero´s depths
After finishing dinner at the tavern, Neia and I went straight home. She closed the entrance door cheerfully, leaned against the door and sighed.
“You’re impatient, Neia”
“……He? E, Emm, I think we’re done eating and I thought we’d get right into the rest of it”
“Well, we’re going to continue”
In fact, it’s not like she’s leaning forward towards sex……but Neia has no particular suspicions about starting the continuation right away and doesn’t seem to have any evasiveness to somehow avoid it. I wouldn’t understand if she had a particularly lecherous constitution, but that’s not the case. If anything, Neia is holding her own. That’s the strange imbalance. ……If I think about it, there are many things that come to mind.
“Maybe……”
“?”
“Neia, are you the kind of person who can’t resist someone who once thought 『I have to listen to what they say』?”
“Hee……e, emm……?”
Neia made a face as if she had been caught in the void.
“For example, a boss, an instructor……a noble. Once you think that you have to follow what this person says, you won’t be able to doubt it”
“…………”
Neia’s gaze wanders. ……Yes. I’m not sure if it was mean-spirited. There are people of that disposition. The military is where you’ll find them and they’re the lowest ranks. They are trained to think that way. They dare not think of reasons or justifications for what they do. Once they decide to follow, they believe in it until they die. Otherwise, the army cannot do anything. Even the most humble of soldiers have different things that are important to them. They should be able to work as hard as each other because the「Big objective」 such as protecting the country or protecting the town should be the same……is an illusion. The ugliness of the reality of being directly killed and murdered cannot be fooled with that. That is why we are forced to change our values when we join the military. To believe that the orders of their superiors are more important than their own lives, justice, or their love for their hometown. What you do right, or fail to do, affects the 「Lives and justice」 of dozens of others. Therefore, even if I were to die there, it would be the right decision. Only by giving up some of the thinking can an organic fighting group function. Even if they know deep down that this is deception, if it makes them stronger, if the group itself survives by being stronger and if they can be part of the majority, they choose to fight by deceiving themselves. But. ……Neia is in a different position. It should not be like that. The position of the hero Neia Glans is not like that.
“You know, right. ……Did someone teach you how to think like that?”
“…………”
“Could it be, Faria……ever since you lost your master, you can’t think of such things anymore……are you talking about something like that?”
“……Th, That……maybe, I don’t know”
Neia clenched her fist against her chest and blushed a little. ……Ah, so that’s what it’s about. I understood a little bit of her snoring. In the episodes with Faria, there was a time when she would get aggravated, break people’s words,and fight as she saw fit……but because of that, Faria died. The pain must have led Neia to think this way. She does not think for herself, but trusts in someone else’s idea. That is what we put our lives on the line for. ……And the royal family took advantage of it. She must have been very easy to handle. No matter how much she was hurt, she believed in the legitimacy of the royal family, believed in the necessity of absolution and was a healthy hero who faced the external enemy and continued to pile on the pain. If this were the case for soldiers, they would wake up once they retired from the army. Even if the habit of obedience to a superior officer remains, there will come a time when they will have to make their own decisions in their social life. Neia, however, is unaware. Completely unconsciously, she has become the most convenient pet dog. If I don’t make her aware of this, there will be no future for her.
“Neia. ……It’s not good enough after all. If you don’t like it, don’t like it and if you don’t like it, act accordingly……or you won’t be able to do anything good when it counts”
“……B, But……Smithson-san, you want to do something ecchi?”
‘If I say I want to do it, you’re going to accept this for as many days as it takes, aren’t you?”
“……E, Emm……I wasn’t thinking that far ahead……but if you insist”
“…………”
In Neia’s mind, I’ve already been set up as 「One of the people to follow」. At first glance, that’s a golden right, but it’s easy to imagine that in reality it would rank below 「The duty of a hero」 and 「The royal family of Kalwin」 for her. It is not good enough. Then. That ranking will surely not be reversed as it is. When push comes to shove, Neia cannot be out of order. ……Yes. No matter how many pleasures I may teach Neia at this point, it will never outweigh being a hero and being Kalwin’s servant.
“……Neia. What do you want?”
“How……even if you say……”
“You have to do what you want to do. I get it now. Change of plans. We’ll have sex some other time”
“E……Eh, wait……!?”
“Let’s go to the hot springs, freshen up and then we’ll go to the baron’s mansion and play with Peter”
“That, eh, I, I don’t mind cuddling with you……
“I’d still want to do it too, but I’m not going to do it without a meaning”
“Meaning……?”
“Inside me”
“I said I’m going to fuck a lot and I’m going to fulfill that”
Then, even if Neia herself doesn’t mind, in the end, she is only submitting herself to obligation.
Asked and answered. That choice needs to be made. I need to make Neia think again each time she does it and gradually change her mind so that she can answer the question for herself……and then value it for herself that there is a future more worthwhile than martyrdom as a hero.
“Good. First, Neia, I’m going to wash your hair. Get in the men’s room”
“Eh, wait……that, I’m a woman!?”
“You want me to wash your hair in the women’s bath?”
“That’s not what I mean……uh”
“If it’s the men’s bath, it’s quite common for dragons and Dianne to enter, so everyone is used to it”
“…………Yes”
If I was pushed here, it would have been the first step, but in the end Neia was swept away. The future is still a long way off.
“Emm……”
“What?”
“Umm, there’s no one here……right?”
“Yes”
The men’s room was empty. I pour hot water on Neia, who is sitting on a wash chair and carefully remove the gunk from her hair with the cooled miraculous spring water.
“……You don’t see anyone here”
“Yes
Neia checked it over and over uncomfortably as she maturely left her hair in my hands.
“……That. My hair is already……fine”
“?”
“……That. Emm……a, aren’t you dissatisfied……?”
“Isn’t it enough to do erotic things?”
“Yeah”
“Well, it’s not something I’m in a hurry to do……”
“……I, for me, if possible, while I’m fully prepared……I think……”
“It’s not good to have sex by inertia. You’re not happy enough”
“……Uh……haa”
Neia is breathing out a strange breath of disappointment that seems to be some kind of subtle satisfaction. ……Umm, I think that there is no mistake about the distorted way of thinking……I think so……. I wonder if my interest in sex was different. But I also think that this should be the right policy to change Neia……. Hmm, that’s difficult.
“Tei”
“……Au”
I’m going to try to squeeze her boobs since Neia seems so complicated.
“……I, Isn’t that what you’re saying?”
“Isn’t it useless?”
“…………That’s not what I meant……please don’t laugh”
“Eh, what”
“I understand that you are trying to correct my mistakes……but if you suddenly turn away from me like that, I will think that you are disappointed that my body is not as good as you thought……isn’t it so?”
“……Puu”
“I told you not to laugh!”
Neia gets angry while dropping her ears.
“This is……I’m a little worried!!”
Not good, but it’s a little cute. ……While playing with Neia, I noticed that 100-man commander Becker and the bird general were peeping at us and after wondering what to do, I decided to call Maia and have her chase them away.